BOOK REVIEW: History is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera

History is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera

Published date: 17 January, 2017

Published by: Soho Teen

Genres: Young Adult, Romance, LGBT, Contemporary

Pages: 294

Format: Hardcover

Rating: 5*

Synopsis: 

From the New York Times bestselling author of More Happy Than Not comes an explosive examination of grief, mental illness, and the devastating consequences of refusing to let go of the past.

When Griffin's first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he's been imagining for himself has gone far off course. 

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin's downward spiral continues. He's losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he's been keeping are tearing him apart. 

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

REVIEW:

The best way for you guys to understand how much this book was good is to say that every single chapter, page, word touched my heart.

“I'm sorry, but please don't be mad at me for reliving all of it. History is all you left me.” 

When I started this book I already had some clues about Adam Silvera's writing. I knew that his books were for you to cry your eyes out and that is exactly what happened to me.

I have to admit that the first 2 or 3 pages didn't grab me much but once I kept going, I wanted to know more. At the same time I couldn't read this book for huge period of times. Why you ask? Well, the chapters here go from History, Today, History, Today and so on. You would think that only the History ones or the Today ones would make me sad or something like that, but no. Both were so heart breaking and beautiful, touching and inspiring, sad and emotional in huge levels.

This wasn't an easy book to read because it touched the theme of losing a loved one, death if you want me to me more specific. Going through the past and present was a complete emotional roller coaster. At the beginning I only wanted History chapters because they left me with a smile and the Today ones left so damn sad or made me cry a ton. But the more I read the more the History chapters started to leave sad as well so it was hard to read several chapters in a row because my eyes love to leak water. Let me correct it... leak oceans. 

This is the first Adam Silvera book I read but I loved it. I loved his writing, the complexity of the characters, the things this book made me think of.

“History is nothing. It can be recycled or thrown away completely. It isn’t this sacred treasure chest I mistook it to be. We were something, but history isn’t enough to keep something alive forever.” 

We have the ups and downs in the this book. The downs being the moments when Griffin felt at his lowest, when he felt that his world was coming undone and wanted to just give up and say ''screw the world. And then there's the ups when he starts to see that it's normal to need help from others, that live isn't always perfect but we can search for the good moments instead of being stuck in negativity.

“There’s nothing wrong with someone saving my life, I’ve realized, especially when I can’t trust myself to get the job done right. People need people. That’s that.“  

Besides all of these quotes the one that will remain in my head for a long time for sure will be this one: 

“History remains with the people who will appreciate it most.“

 Even if you're not a fan of ugly cry books, give this one a try. This books was outstanding and I will cherish it so much.